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Sunday, September 27, 2009

Everyman after 1485

This has probably been one of my favorite pieces of literature I have read this semester in my British Lit class.  It’s visual representation—through the personification of it’s “morals”— has powerfully impacted my view on the accountability I have to God in this life.  I can’t express, enough, how transformational this brilliant piece of literature has been— reminding me how fragile life is, what my heart should be desiring to aquire, and broadening my perspective on so many fundamental concepts essential to salvation. 





“This is a late example of a kind of medieval drama known as the morality play.  Morality plays . . .  have a primarly religious purpose, but there method of attaining it is different.  Both mysteries and moralities addressed questions of the ultimate fate of the soul” (Norton 463).


If you have time I strongly recommend reading it.  It is one of those works you really can’t put down because it is so visual.  I even recommend reading it with your children (if you start out young they can begin to understand the significance of such works—they may not understand the literature but they will definitely understand the visual representation).  Among many other wonderful literary works, this is definitely one I will incorporate into my child’s reading.


Here is a link to the actual play:


This is the plot summary, to get you interested, provided by Wikipedia:


The play opens with a messenger speaking to the audience. He tells them to listen and watch the play and learn the lesson within. Then God is the next to speak giving a monologue about his troubles. He complains about how humans have become too absorbed in material wealth and riches to follow Him. He feels taken for granted, because He receives no appreciation for all that He has given them. God summons Death, His messenger, and tells him to go to Everyman and summon him to heaven to make his reckoning. It is then that he will be killed then judged.
Upon hearing this, Everyman is distressed as he does not have a proper account of his life prepared. Everyman tries to bribe Death and asks for more time. Death denies this request but tells Everyman he may find a companion for his journey, someone to speak for his good virtues.
Fellowship, representing a person's friends, happens along and promises to go anywhere with Everyman. However, when Fellowship hears of the true nature of Everyman's journey, he immediately refuses to go. Fellowship says that he would stay with Everyman were they having fun, but will not accompany him on such a journey. It is here established that Fellowship is a personification of the "fair weather friend."
Everyman then sees Kindred and Cousin, who represent family, and asks them to go with him. Kindred flat out refuses, saying he'd rather go to parties and Cousin says, "No, I have a cramp in my toe," so he can't go either. Cousin also presents a fundamental reason why no one will accompany Everyman: they have their own accounts to write as well.
Everyman realizes that he has put much love towards Goods, so Goods will surely come with him on his journey with Death. Goods will not come with Everyman; he says that because Everyman concentrated so much effort on Goods during his life, Goods' presence would make Everyman's case even worse.
Everyman then turns to Good Deeds. Good Deeds says she would go with him, but she is too weak as Everyman has not loved her. She sends her sister Knowledge with Everyman, and together they go to see Confession.
There, Everyman repents for all his sins, and punishes himself with a scourge. Confession gives Everyman a jewel called Penance. Everyman is now absolved of all sins, and Good Deeds becomes strong enough to accompany Everyman on his journey. Knowledge gifts Everyman with a garment made from her own tears, called Contrition. Good Deeds summons Beauty, Strength, Discretion and Everyman's Five Wits to join them. They all agree to go with him, after he goes to a priest to take sacrament.
Again, when Everyman tells them where his journey ends, all but Good Deeds forsake him. This is because beauty, strength, discretion, and the five wits are qualities that leave a person as they get older. Knowledge cannot accompany him beyond the point where he leaves his physical body. Everyman gets into his grave. Everyman and Good Deeds ascend into heaven, where they are welcomed by an Angel. A Doctor, representing a scholar, then explains the moral of the story: that in the end, a person will only have his Good Deeds to accompany him beyond the grave.


My thoughts: 


**To provide but mere “clues,” because literature is mainly what YOU get out of it, these might help transform your reading: remember that “Everyman,” represents “every man,” so this play, through the personification of the main character, represents us all.  It is, visually, more impacting to remember this; it makes you feel as though you are the one accountable, you are the one in the play.  Other good thoughts to chew on— as already mentioned in the summary— we don’t believe, as LDS, that we don’t take our knowledge with us when we die; this was a belief back in this day and age, and is a belief still held by some today.  People believed that knowledge wasn’t universal (not everyone had the chance to receive an education), and salvation was universal, thus the reason knowledge could only lead Everyman to the grave and not to heaven.  Another, simpler, way of looking at it: If Everyman was to represent every man (especially when the plays were being performed live—the morality play being something everyone could be influenced by) everyone had to be on the same footing, equal playing field, if you will.  I also thought it powerful to see that Five Wits, Discretion, Strength, and Beauty are things the Lord gives us to help us in THIS LIFE, but they are of no value to our immortal soul; yet how many of us place emphasis on them?  The only thing that went with Everyman to heaven: Good Deeds—something that was buried in the earth because of Everyman’s neglect, something he had to resurrect in order to receive his salvation. And it is only through her sister, Knowledge, wherein Everyman learns the ordinances important to his salvation: repentance, contrition, baptism, partaking of the sacrament (Christ's blood/body), and marriage (although the play never reveals Everymans marriage). 


A pretty profound, pretty brilliant, way of putting life in perspective.  


Sunday, September 20, 2009

The Savior


















D&C 87:77 And I give unto you a commandment that you shall ateach one another the bdoctrine of the kingdom.
78 Teach ye diligently and my agrace shall attend you, that you may be binstructed more perfectly in theory, in principle, in doctrine, in the law of the gospel, in all things that pertain unto the kingdom of God, that are expedient for you to understand;
 79 Of things both in aheaven and in the earth, and under the earth; things which have been, things which are, things which must bshortly come to pass; things which are at home, things which are abroad; the wars and the perplexities of the cnations, and the judgments which are on the land; and a dknowledge also of countries and of kingdoms—
80 That ye may be prepared in all things when I shall send you again to amagnify the calling whereunto I have called you, and the bmission with which I have commissioned you.

Lately I have been reading about the 14-15th century writers, particularly women writers, such as Julian of Norwich and Margery Kempe


To give a little background: “An anchorite or anchoress is a religious recluse confined to an enclosure, which he or she has vowed never to leave.  At the time of such an enclosing the burial service was performed, signifying that the enclosed person was dead to the world and that the enclosure corresponded to a grave.  The point of this confinement was, of course, to pursue more actively the contemplative or spiritual life” (Norton 311).

It struck me, as I was reading the literature how desirous these women were to follow Christ.  Unlike us, the didn’t have the fullness of the gospel, in fact they only had the Bible as their reference, and yet they were blest with many visions and many powerful experiences that increased their testimonies of the Savior.  I then thought about the history in between the medieval time period up to our faithful pioneers.  A powerful feeling came over me: Christ is the one person that has continued to exist throughout the ages.  His life has been known consistently since the beginning of time.  Oral traditions of peoples various cultural beliefs have changed, or even been lost, throughout the ages, and yet Christ’s story/gospel has always existed.  I also began to reflect on the realization that God loves every single person that was born into this world; they are his children—he wants to edify them, teach them, help them, love them— no matter their religion, no matter if they have the fullness of the gospel, no matter the mistakes they have made, no matter their status or station in life. 
Pondering these writings increased my personal testimony of the Savior.  I am so grateful for wonderful people, throughout the ages, whose writing has the ability to teach, move, and edify others.  I don’t think I have ever been so moved, till I read these excerpts about Christ’s understanding about our trials and the necessity of them; about his love for his mother Mary and her relationship to him; and about his love for every living soul—a love that fills the immensity of space.
I hope you can be edified by these passages as I have.
Julian of Norwich (speaking of the vision she was given about our trials and why we have to walk through hard times):

“And thus in my folly before this time often I wondered why, by the great foreseeing wisdom of God, the beginning of sin was not letted [saved].  For then thought me that all should have been well.  But Jesu that in this vision informed me of all that me needed answered by this word and said: ‘Sin is behovely [fitting].’  For we be all in part troubled, and we shall be troubled, following our master Jesu, till we be fully purged of our deadly [mortal] flesh which be not very good.  And with the beholding of this, with all the pains that ever were or ever shall be, I understood the passion of Christ for the most pain and overpassing [exceeding pain].  And for the tender love that our good Lord hath to all that shall be saved, he comforteth readily and sweetly, meaning thus: It is true that sin is cause of all this pain, but all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well. Then were it great unkindess of me to blame or wonder on God of my sin, since he blameth not me for sin.  In which knowing we shall verily see the cause why he suffered sin to come, in which sight we shall endlessly have joy” (Norton 377). 
Excerpt from another vision she had regarding travail:
“And yet after this he suffereth some of us to fall more hard and more grieveously than ever we did before, as us thinketh.  And then suppose that all were nought that we have begun.  But it is not so, for it needeth us to fall, and it neededth us to see it; for if we fell not, we should not know how feeble and how wretched we be of ourself, nor also we should not so fulsomely know the marvelous love of our maker.  For we shall verily see in heaven without end that we have grieveiously sinned in this life; notwithstanding this we shall verily see that we are never hurt in his love, nor we were never the less price in his sight.  And by the assay of this falling we shall have an high and a marvelous knowing of love in God without end” (Norton 381).
Prior Julian describes a concept, unfamiliar to us, of the Savior being our Mother as well as our father, which I won’t explain here, but it is a fascinating concept.  And then she says the following:

“The mother (our earthly mother) may suffer the child to fall sometime and be diseased [unhappy] in diverse manner of peril come to her child for love.  And though our earthly mother may suffer her child to perish, our heavenly mother Jesu may never suffer that be his children perish, for he is all mighty, all wisdom, and all love, and so is none but he, blessed mote he be.  But oft times when our falling and our wretchedness is showed to us, we be so sore adread and so greatly ashamed of ourself and scarcely we wit where that we may hold us.  But then will not our courteous mother that we flee away, for him were nothing more hateful to him; for then he will that we use the condition of a child.  For when it is diseased and afeared, it runneth hastily to the mother; and if it may do no more, it crieth on the mother for help with all the might.  So will he that we do as the meek child, saying thus: ‘My kind mother, my gracious mother, my dearworthy mother, have mercy on me.  I have made myself foul and unlike to thee, and I may not nor can amend it but with thine help and grace.’
*“The blessed wounds of our savior be open and rejoice to heal us.  The sweet gracious hands of our mother be ready and diligent about us; for he in all this working useth the very office of a kind nurse that hath not else to do but to be busy about the salvation of her child.  It is his office to save us, it is his worship to do it, and it is his will we know it; for he will we love him sweetly and trust in him meekly and mightily.  And this showed he in these gracious words: ‘I keep thee surely.’
Julian speaking about the love of God:
First she had a vision of a hazlenut lying in the palm of her hand (representing the world).  She says of this vision: “And I was answered in my understanding: It lasteth and ever shall, for God loveth it; and so hath all things being by the love of God. In this little thing I saw three properities.  The first is that God made it, the second that God loveth it, the third that God keepeth (or looks after) it.  But what beheld I therein? Verily, the maker, the keeper, the lover.  For till I am substantially united to him I may never have full rest, nor true bliss; that is to say that I so fastened to him that there be right nought that is made between my God and me . . . For this is the cause why we be not all in ease of heart and soul, for we seek here rest in this thing that is so little, where no rest is in, and we know not our God, that is almighty, all wise and all good, for he is very rest.  God will be known, and him liketh that we rest us in him; for all that is beneath him suffiseth not to us” (Norton 375).
*Thus was I taught, that love is our Lord’s meaning.  And I saw full surely in this and in all, that ere God made us he loved us, which love was never abated nor never shall.  And in this love he hath done all his works, and in this love he hath made all things profitable to us, and in this love our life is everlasting.  In our making we had beginning, but the love wherein he made us was in him from without beginning.  In which love we have our beginning, and all this shall we see in God withouten end” (Norton 382). 
Margery Kempe (after receiving a vision left her family and journeyed through the Holy Land, where she received many powerful visions about the life of Christ).
This is a vision she had of Mary, the mother of Christ, at the time of Christ’s death.  This is probably one of the most moving texts I have yet to read about this amazing woman, the mother of the Savior.
“Then she (the author) beheld in the sight of her soul our blissful Lord Christ Jesu coming to His passionward, and ere He went, He kneeled down and took His mother’s blessing.  Then she (the author) saw His mother (Mary) falling down in swooning before her Son, saying to him, ‘Alas, my dear Son, how shall I suffer this sorrow and have no joy in all this world but thee alone.’ ‘A, dear Son, if thou wilt in any case die, let me die before thee and let me never suffer this day of sorrow, for I may never bear this sorrow that I shall have for thy death.  I wolde, Son, that I might suffer death for thee so that thou shouldst not die, if man’s soul might be so saved.  Now, dear Son, if thou have no pity of thyself, have pity of thy mother, for thou know full well there can no man in all this world comfort me but thou alone.’


And then listen to the Saviors sweet reply to his mother, listen to the promises he gives her upon his death (it brings tears to my eyes every time I read it; I can honestly envision it was as such):
“Then our Lord took up His mother in His arms and kissed her full sweetly and said to her, ‘A blessed mother, be of good cheer and of a good comfort, for I have told you full often that I must needs suffer death and otherwise should no man be saved nor never come in bliss.  And mother, it is my Fathers will that it be so, and therefore I pray you let it be your will also, for my death shall bring me great honor, and you and all mankind to great joy and profit which those who trust in my Passion and work thereafter.  I pray you, dearworthy mother, ceaseth of your sorrowing, for I shall not leave you comfortless.  I shall leave here with you John, my cousin, to comfort you in stead of me; I shall send my holy angels to comfort you in earth; and I shall comfort in your soul mine own self, for mother, ye know well I have promised you the bliss of heaven that ye are sekir [secure] thereof.  A dearworthy mother, what would ye better than there I am king and ye for to be queen, and all angels and saints shall be obedient to your will.  And what grace ye ask me I shall not deny your desire.  I shall give you power over the devils that they shall be afraid of you and ye not of them.  And also, my blessed mother, I have said to you before time that I shall come for you mine own self when ye shall pass out of this world with all mine angels and all mine saints that are in heaven and bring you before my Father with all manner of music, melody, and joy.  And there shall I set you in a great peace and rest without end.  And there shall be crowned as for Queen of Heaven, as for lady of all the world, and as for Empress of Hell.  And therefore, my dearworthy mother, I pray you blesseth me and let me go do my Father’s will, for therefore I came into this world and took flesh and blood of you’ (Norton 396).
And then Margery, with Mary, witnesses the Saviors crucifixion, and makes a few last remarks, which I think are so profound:
“And He went forth meekly afore them, all mother-naked as He was born, to a pillar of stone and spake no word again but let them do and say what they would.”  Later Christ says to Margery, as she is sorrowing for the Saviors death, in a vision: “Daughter, these sorrows and many more suffered I for thy love, and diverse pains, more than any man can tell in earth.  Therefore, daughter, thou has great cause to love me right well, for I have bought thy love full dear” (Norton 397).

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Comments

People have been emailing me about being unable to post comments on the blog; sorry about this! I don't know what is wrong, but I will see if I can get this resolved by the weekend.  In the mean time if you have a comment you want to submit, email it to me and I would love to post it for you: eastmanamanda@hotmail.com

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Sunday, September 13, 2009

Education

Posting 3:

"A mind once stretched by a new idea never regains its original dimensions."  Anonymous

I love learning, and it is my hope that I can continue learning (whether academically, through life experience(s), or self-taught subjects) the rest of my life.  As mentioned in my earlier post: I am a thinker.   Mike would probably tell you I absorb him and myself in random discussion (at times lasting for hours) that spawn from the collection of ponderings and wonderments innate to my nature.  Thus, my reason for starting this blog: a way to archive some of the many thoughts about life, love, literature, the world, politics, family, values, morals, etc., that excite my curiosity. 

This blog will most likely start as my own journal of thoughts and opinions, aspirations, and experiences; however, it is my hope that it will generate into a community of those who wish to share their thoughts and opinions, to engage in learning; to “aspire to inspire.”  I believe it is within each of us to do so—each has a wealth of knowledge to share; thus it is my hope we can share, grow, and inspire collectively.     
Moving on to post #3 (the “official post”):

“You are a product of your environment. So choose the environment that will best develop you toward your objective. Analyze your life in terms of its environment. Are the things around you helping you toward success - or are they holding you back?”  W. Clement Stone

In my Literary Theory class we discussed Stanley Fish’s essay, “How to Recognize a Poem When You See One.”  

(Accessible here: http://academic2.american.edu/~dfagel/Class%20Readings/Fish/HowToRecognizeAPoem.htm).  The counter essay (what would a theory class be without reading both sides right?) was: “Do We Write the Text We Read?” by Reed Dasenbrock. 

For the sake of time (I am after all a college student), I am going to write a few of my thoughts, and the thoughts discussed in class by my professor and fellow students, on Fish’s essay.  I hope that my neglect in talking about the opposing essay doesn’t show my lack of desire to employ my mind to any and all theories on this subject; rather, it is my desire to open peoples mind to a probable way of looking at something, as I have, and also to spark interest for further self-research, exploration, and opinion. 

I am not going to do Fish’s essay justice; I would suggest your read it if any of this finds you intrigued.  I will give an overview of some of the things he discusses and tie the thoughts I developed while reading the essay.

Fish opens his essay by stating the following:

“Last time I sketched out an argument by which meanings are the property neither of fixed and stable texts nor of free and independent readers but of interpretive communities that are responsible both for the shape of the reader’s activities and for the texts those activities produce.  In this lecture I propose to extend that argument so as to account not only for the meanings a poem might be said to have but for the fact of its being recognized as a poem in the first place” (Fish 1).

An anecdote is given, of which he draws most of his arguments/theories from (I will paraphrase):

He lectures two courses: 1) the relationship between linguistics and literary criticism, and 2) English religious poetry of the seventeenth century.  Fish posted an assignment on the board for his first class:

Jacobs-Rosenbaum
            Levin
            Thorne
            Hayes
            Ohman (?)

There was nothing significant about these authors, other than they were linguists assigned to the previous class (Ohman and the question mark—purely a matter of unsure spelling).  When the second class came in, the assignment was still on the board.  The professor decided to do an experiment with the class, an experiment he has performed at many universities around the nation—all resulting the same.  He told the class what they saw on the blackboard was a religious poem and asked them to interpret it.  The students quickly started finding symbolisms (mainly Christian in nature; for example, they assumed Jacob represented “Jacobs ladder” in the OT, which allegorized the Christian ascent into heaven; it being on the top of the list also created the assumption.  Another said the means of ascent is not a ladder “but a tree, a rose tree or rosenbaum, which was an obvious reference to the Virgin Mary who was often characterized as a rose without thorns, itself an emblem of the immaculate conception”) (4).  The students continued to dissect, as English majors do, the poem in its entirety, coming up with legitimate/compelling interpretations of the “poem.”

Leaving the story, Fish asks the reader:

“What source is the ability [the ability for them to interpret the poem]? How is it that they were able to do what they did?  What are the distinguishing features of literary language?  Or, to put the matter more colloquially, how do you recognize a poem when you see one? (. . .) Some claim you know a poem when you see one because its language displays the characteristics that you know to be proper poems.  This, however, is a model that quite obviously does not fit the present example.  My students did not proceed from the noting of distinguishing features to the recognition that they were confronted by a poem; rather, it was the act of recognition that came first—they knew in advance that they were dealing with a poem—and the distinguishing features then followed” (6).

To recap, briefly, Fish says: “Skilled reading is usually thought to be a matter of discerning what is there, but . . . [really] a matter of knowing how to produce what can thereafter be said to be there.  Interpretation is not the art of construing, but the art of constructing.  Interpreters do not decode poems; they make them” (272).

I will write only briefly, because I realize how lengthy this is becoming (although I thrive on this kind of stuff), Fish also argues that everything we learn derives from our “interpretive community” (i.e. we are a byproduct of our society; we can never look at the world objectively). 

Although I do see the flaws in Fishes work (they are many), I agree with him in many cases, and have had the fortunate experience (or not so fortunate, depending on how you look at it) of witnessing many occasions that support his theory. 

Amanda’s thoughts (drum roll, please):

I laughed when I read the story; I found it quite humorous that a bunch of intelligent English majors were conned into thinking this was in fact a poem.  But that is Fish’s point right?  The students constructed meaning that wasn’t there to begin with, so in a way, a poem isn’t a poem unless we first assume it is.  My question is, who first “assumed” poetry? What is poetry?  This question easily leads to Fish’s second argument: we are conformists (is that too bold or too out of context? Sorry).  The truth of the example: the students looked for the meaning and ambiguities of the poem, the alliterative and consonantal patterns, once they knew it was a poem.  They couldn’t assume it was a poem without being told prior, in which case they were able to draw from their knowledge bank, i.e. interpretive community, and apply the techniques necessary for it to read like a poem. 

A personal example regarding the problem with living within an “interpretive community, especially academically:

I had to write an in-class essay in English 314  (prior to reading Fish for my theory class).  The instructions were as follows:

1.     Read through the poem carefully
2.      Identify its form
3.     Explain what the form reveals about the poem
4.     Use a literary theory to interpret the poem

I am going to speak candidly now: first of all, what is interpretation to you?  Is it restrictive? Is it something pre-defined?  Is it something open? In this case, if I assume interpretation as open, as in my OWN interpretation (i.e. how the poem moves me, what it symbolizes to me, how I extract meaning), I would be wrong, correct?  Clearly this is the case, because first I had to a) identify the form, b) use the form to reveal meaning, c) use a literary theory (am I supposed to know what those are in the first place???) to extract meaning.   Let me pose this question: what if I didn’t know any of the aforementioned?  What then? Would I be classified as “illiterate” by way of poetic codes/norms? 

The problem with this established “poetic interpretive community” is it restricts, and frankly scares people away from reading poetry; it becomes intimidating when one is made to feel there is ONE interpretation, or rather a “pre-defined,” or  “more right,” way of interpreting the text.  SIDENOTE: Why didn’t I use this “literary theory” as my theory for my in-class essay??? What a riot that would have been—to show the academic world supports Fish, in ways, by saying, “interpret this poem but under these standards/restrictions;” thus, we are being made to conform to the academic literary standards.

Poems should be open to interpretation; why place a standard with form?  Well, I can critique my own question.  Being an English major I see the relevance in form, the meaning in structure, scansion, etc.  There are rules (linguistic and otherwise) one must be advised by, and follow, when reading a literary work (i.e. the outside influences that influence a text—tradition, culture, history, political movements, social/economic movements, industrialization, technology, etc.) All of these things effect and define literary patterns and movements.  These must be adhered to, in most cases, when looking critically at a literary work, or else we look past the author’s intention/meaning: discrediting him in sorts.  (This raises yet another question: “Is literature for the reader or the writer?” Isn’t this fun, we could rebuttal theories all day—thus the purpose of theory J).

And YES it KEEPS going; if you are bored, it isn’t my problem, you’ve been conditioned to be bored J. 

Continuing with my thoughts on Fish’s second argument:

Fish gives an example of a student raising his hand in class.  He asks the other students what the student is doing, what he wants?  Everyone assumes this an easy answer: he has a question and is waiting for the professor to give him permission to speak.  Fish asks the reader the question: how did they not know he had a question verses needing to ask permission to use the bathroom?  Case in point: “in the absence of a specific context we are authorized to take the words literally” (i.e. we know certain things because we have learned them from our “interpretive community;” society taught us that when a student raises his hand in class he either wants to say something or ask a question).  I couldn’t help but stop and wonder, recently taking Poli-sci, if Aristotle had something going when he claimed that outside the polis (“interpretive community”) human nature didn’t exist;  “The way of seeing, whatever it is, would never be individual or idiosyncratic, since its source would always be the institutional structure of which the ‘see-er’ was an extending agent” (Fish 335).

Also tying my political science, in modern political thought, to Fish’s argument, I learned that we can never look at different ways of life or thought objectively; we will always come from a western perspective.  It is impossible for us to break free of our heritage.  **The western perspective is the gateway for us in understanding life and thought but we can never fully be objective.  An example was given of anthropologists, whose career and life study it is to examine other ways of life— often living in a different culture, studying education, traditions, political systems, etc. They are supposed to look at culture objectively; however, it has been proven that when they return to collect their data, to formulate results, they are unable to break free from even the process in which they collect data—using modern social science, which is rooted in western intellect. 

Back to the class discussion: we got into the particulars of Fish’s argument, assuming they were correct, and how this theory effected our religious beliefs about the scriptures and revelation.  (Again, I haven’t even touched on the opposing essay, but he basically said Fish stands incorrect, for if we are merely our interpretive community, how can we ever learn anything new?).   The discussion commenced with the question “do we interpret the scriptures? Do we, as Fish would claim, give them meaning (in other words without us constructing meaning no prior meaning would exist)?   SIDENOTE: these are moments I feel bad for the professor—ha-ha—especially teaching theory at a Christian university, of which he wrote an essay about—quite interesting. 

The class, of course, re-iterated the “Mormon answer:” we can read the same verse over and over again and get something new out of it each time; also, someone could read the same chapter and yet learn something totally different; thus, Fish stands correct: we extract meaning from texts (prior), even the scriptures.  However, and this is the BIG problem with the theory: does that mean the scriptures have no valid meaning or purpose outside of, or prior to, our interpretation of them?  Of course the answer is no (believing this is the case, leads to apostasy, i.e. “philosophies of men, mingled with scripture”).  So, drum roll— the theory is not without fault, and so it is meant to be, as my professor stated, if a theory professes to stand correct about something, be leery of it; consciousness is complex—always changing, never fixed. 

One last thought: I asked my teacher the following question after class, “do you see the dichotomy in this theory?  More specific in relation to the Church and the outside world?” And then I gave him examples: In the church we have a right way and a wrong way; we have authorial figures that govern the laws of God.  Yes, scripture/revelation is personal (open to interpretation, to a degree); however, most of what we believe in doesn’t create any room for interpretation.  So the interpretation seems subordinate to the authorial.  However, even in the church, as well as other communities (i.e. academia, our jobs, families, etc.) we are asked to be individuals, be different, stand for what is right, extract your own meaning from things (i.e. don’t believe something because someone else believes it, or write the way someone else writes—have your own voice).  Thus, we are asked to interpret things on an individual bases. (This example showing the dichotomy, of which the professor agreed). 

The question I then posed to him was “do you feel we can ever be individuals?  Do you feel we can ever stand outside our “interpretive community” and see things objectively?  I gave him an example of an earlier experience I had in my English 291 class:  A group was asked to look at the symbols in Beowulf and report their ideas to the class.  A lot of these ideas were based on Christian symbols they found in the text (i.e. Beowulf having characteristics of Christ; triumphing over evil, etc.).  The interesting thing about that discussion was, as the teacher explained, Beowulf was an epic text written during the time when the Anglo Saxons occupied England.  Later, a Christian, by the name of Bede, translated the epic.  It is assumed, by many scholars who read the epic, that Bede inserted many of the Christian references that weren’t initially in Beowulf.  This only makes sense because Christianity didn’t exist during the time it was written; the Anglo Saxons were pagan.  Thus, we can see Fish’s argument again—Bede took an epic text (intention being to show heroism, to defy all odds against supernatural things, etc.) and extracted meaning from it (coming from his own “Christian, interpretive community”).  This is the translation we have today; the translation Christians extract symbolisms from because of their own “interpretive community/conditioning.”  I asked my English 291 professor after class if the statistics of those who are Christian look at Beowulf as a Christian epic verses those who are atheist. for example, look at the authorial side of the text—the pagan/original meaning?  She didn’t know the exact statistic, but could say that the original work didn’t have Christian references.

My theory professor said, without giving his own opinion, referring me back to Fish (was I to expect anything less?), that Fish would say even if we were to stand “outside our interpretive community,” and look at things objectively, the ideas we derived would have already existed in a prior “interpretive community,” or in other words, we would be constructing meaning from an already constructed meaning.

WHEW! That was arduous but fun! Good things to chew on—good food for thought! 

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Goals

“To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe." Anatone France

The first post might as well be something Mike and I have been discussing and trying to incorporate into our lives as of late: collective and individual goal setting. I know I could make a blog about each of these goals we are trying to achieve, but I am going to post them all here in one fell swoop.

I love this quote above; it denotes a belief in the greatness within ourselves, for how else could we set, or accomplish, “great” goals if we didn’t first believe WE are great?

These past few weeks I have tapped into my “greatness.” (BIG SIDE NOTE, which will probably become its own posting one day because it is a fascinating idea: knowing you are great does not mean you are prideful. God knows you are great, you were created great, you better start believing you are great).

Because I have started the journey of understanding and accepting my own greatness, I have truly been able to see the Lords hand in my life in overcoming fear, doubt, and low self-esteem.

Let me list our goals, and then briefly talk about some of the wonderful things/experiences I have been blessed with these past two weeks.

1) Change your focus

2) Look outside yourself, serve others (which ties into letting go of fears and insecurities)

3) Accept the things you cannot change; change the things you CAN

(These are, btw, goals we are trying to accomplish now, not at the beginning of the year—what an concept huh)?

Change your focus

What I mean by this is actually found in a motivational talk given by Anthony Robbins. I strongly encourage you to watch this short clip I will post (at the end).

Basically, if you focus on the negative your results will be negative; if you focus on the positive, your results will be positive (aka “law of attraction,” which is apart of the LDS belief system: “ask and ye shall receive, knock and it shall be opened unto you.” It is a universal law).

How did I put it to practice; how did it work in my life? The last two weeks have been nothing short of a miracle. I have a hard time controlling the negative, especially when it comes to being critical of myself.  I have done this for so long that it has become a habit.  In order to break this habit I had to change my focus. Once I changed my focus, the positive things that I felt about myself started surfacing. The more I became consciously aware of the negative, the faster the turn around. Instead of dwelling on “what’s wrong with my life/myself,” I started seeing the greatness all around and within me. Having made this apart of my life for two weeks now, and seeing myself start to revert back, at moments, to the negative, I quickly stop myself and think: “I don’t want to go back, because I know the difference. I like my life so much better when I am positive.”

It may seem like a daunting task, but it is as easy, and as worthwhile, as shifting your focus, for what you focus on becomes your belief system. I will give you an example:

I kept telling myself that I was dumb academically; that I didn’t measure up to all of the other students at BYU. When I started to change that negative focus, started to “think myself smart,” a domino effect happened. Not only did my self-esteem increase dramatically (because my belief system had changed), but I also started to let go of my fear that pervaded that negative focus. Sharing my thoughts, opinions, and ideas in class, all of a sudden became second nature to me; I felt so much more gratification from not only learning from others but also sharing my knowledge.

Look outside yourself

This kind of ties into the first goal, but it differs as well. I have gained a belief in the power of overcoming your trials/fears by being less concerned with yourself than you are about others. I will give a personal example:

When I am not feeling good about myself, I let the fear of sharing myself with others, and being rejected by the people around me, become my focus. When I focus instead on other peoples needs, their possible fears or insecurities, my fears dissipate. In other words, you can’t be occupying two thoughts at the same time; if I want to get over my problems I have to focus on helping other people overcome their problems. Another example I can give that I am sure many can relate to: why are we afraid of speaking in public (more specific in bearing our testimony)? Essentially, we are afraid because we are thinking about ourselves (i.e. “Am I a good speaker?” “Do I have something on my face?” “Will I be eloquent in my address?” “Are my thoughts transparent?”).  

Solution: change your self-focus instead to “I have the opportunity to help other people;” “there may be someone here that is going through something hard, and something I say might trigger an answer for them."  How much easier would we overcome the fear of public speaking if we thought outside of our own concerns? There are so many other examples I can give, examples that allow no room for rationalization: every example could be applied to this goal.

There are trials in my life I have had to deal with, and prayed for deliverance from for many years. It is only after I learned this concept— looking outside of my own problems, fears, and insecurities, those trials became strengths.

Accept the things you cannot change; change the things you CAN

Funny, now that I am writing about these, I see how all three goals interrelate.

This is something I want to practice in my life so I can one day teach it to my children (how much heartache they could save themselves from if they learned this lesson).

The goal is pretty self-explanatory, so I will only give examples—one of my own life, and one of a future scenario with a child. This is going to be such a trivial example, but that is what this blog is about: the less important things in life that are in fact important to us.

Example: I can’t change my skin or how it re-acts, or how my body is composed (through my family genes), so instead of being frustrated, or down about it, and letting the things I CANNOT change consume me, I accept them and move on (have a pity party for 10 minutes, of course, in order to validate my feelings/emotions, because that is important for every girl, and then move on).  I CAN, however, change my eating habits; I can drink more water; I can be more healthy; I can control my stress levels; I can control my perspective—these are things I have control of.

Example for kids: they can’t control what people say about them; they can’t control others actions or reactions (whether they are accepted by the “in” crowd).  They can control, however, their behavior; they can control their attitude; they can control how involved they are, etc.

This can be applied to anything, from not being able to control the economy but controlling your own economy; from not being able to control the outcome of a presidential election, but going out and placing your vote. The examples are endless.

SUMMARY: Make a list of the things that are on your mind, the concerns you have; divide them into two categories: “CAN CONTROL,” and “CAN NOT CONTROL.” If your list reveals you are concerned with things you CAN’T change or have NO control over, let them go (remember there are only TWO options: acceptance or frustration); if the list shows you are concerned with things that CAN be changed, with things you CAN control, make goals to accomplish those things.

Mike and I both find these goals, or maybe I should term them habits, worth pursuing and hopefully mastering one day. Hopefully they gave you some ideas to incorporate in your life. 


What are your goals?

Motivational Clip—change your focus: